Friday, March 27, 2009

From childhood-oldage(orphanage - oldage home)

An ordinary day started with usual rush to clinics as i got up late......only one case for therapy n tat too tibetan ...mt dear shanghai...after giving chance to him 4 imitating me n chatting with his grandpa i ran to room no 39(i guess) to submit ma reports...afternoon classes were horrible except enjoying manj's n swetha recorded laugh(really it was haughting laughters)....
my feet got wounded becoz of ma nw sandals ..i could hardly walk wearing them...n adjusting my walk accordg 2 tat i git small sprain i ma legs....nywys we r having 3 days long holidays so these all cant prevent me frm "enjoy mading" 2day....eveng the thg came 2 ma ind tat 2day s the NSS orphanage visit....feelg very tired....shld i go....????"should go dear" wats tat....inner voice....
ok lets go mari.....i told ma frnd...waitg 4 the college bus 2 start i saw a non NSS member our slow processor cumg with a smile n confusion if she could cum....she got permission....we went to the orphanage......first time m goin to such a place...it was a trust n along with children there are ORPHAN grandmas....we could hear frm outside "topi beka topi......".......they were playing with the NSS members my juniors who arrived early....very happy kids opposite 2 my expectation.....

one girl sukanya came n sat on my lap....she saw my frnds bangles and chain..i asked her if she likes it...she said yes...
but none of them had bangles or chain.........
it reminded me of my young age as well as my chechi's daughter who throw bangles away becoz she has enough n she don want to wear it.......
i noticed one boy....he appeared burned.....he showed me beautiful sketches he has done n said i have done it on my own..................
ya he should becoz there s nobody there 2 help him out..............
to appreciate his talents......
i akd rafeeq who looke smart wat s his ambition...he said sofware engn
i askd yyyy???
then he said once i had my father n he wanted me 2 be an engnr,,,,
he still carries tat n mind....i wished him all success.....
next was a girl who wanted to becum a singer.....
then there was a sweet cutie chumma(subha-2yrs)......who was the star of the day...
no body was ready 2 keep her down...,,,n she wanted 2 be carried
i thought of kids of same age who r reluctant to cum from their mothers lap.......
then we gave them sweets n enjoyed their performance.....
finally we went 2 meet aji's......(grandmas)

children definitely hdont have long stories to tell us...but the old mothers.....they had
they were not from the road.......
they were not beggars
they were not poor
they all from good families
and most worst part is they r in this orphanage when their own children having their own house ,well settled live in the same city....................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they were nt blaming....they have gud reasons not to blame their children.......................
growing to this level from their mothers lap nw they they dont have space in their big houses n small mind to accomodate them ,care them..............

words cannot exxpress their feeling....n nobody can empathize their emotions...........
failing 2 control my tears ......i sat n front of a grandma.....she has a beautiful name.......n she s indeed very beautiful......b4 leaving i touched her feets n she blessed.......n said do cum n a holiday at day time....but dont bunk classes....

How they can luv us when their own chidren of our generation has left them alone...they still expect us to cum n just talk to them...............

when i came outside i saw a little boy prasanna...i just lifted him n he was happy..he caught my hand n took me to his elder brothers who were busy making paper flower for us......he tried to get me flower but he couldnt.......i said its 5ne as it was time.....he coughed n without sying a word he went inside................
v bid bye to all n left...............b4 leaving rafeeq askd me akka where are u frm....has said kerala...he murmered n the ear of girl next 2 him....they came frm kerala 2 see us.....................
v smiled looking at each other......

i called up my mom 2 tell wat all happened n she joked "oh v all r goin to be n such places soon know"

i laughed.........still feeling their pain in my mind...................

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Appu,
There is a smooth flow in your words..

deeps said...

a pint of sorrow is flowing all the way down ... even your laughter there cannot hide the fact! yes your mom is right, of course she may be lucky, but not many will not be!

how are you doing? i have been away for a while..
tc

deeps said...

umm maybe so aparna ..
i just wrote what i thought ..
i blive its a man-woman relationship thats at the apex ...

very busy ha? no updates...